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Is it still worth going thru all this?

Evening vaguelythis. (lengthy post today)
P.S. I don't have a good command of english so this will get boring for some of you.

For starters, today's officially the last day of term 2.
Last day of MT intensive drill. Time has passed really quickly. 6 days of intensive MT drill just zoomed past, but I must say, I've had my fair share of laughs with "new"found classmates in my chinese class be it during lesson, or recess or even after school. :)

O level MT is in less that 4 days, I am feeling a little nervous but other than that I shouldn't be worrying too much. On a lighter and happier note, I found out my Chemistry test marks! I can't remember what the total mark was, but I'm satisfied I did alright despite not studying a single bit.

What have I been doing besides chinese and watching tv? I've been considering on DSA-ing in to JCs using Netball. The chances of entering are rather slim, but hey, just try to see where I stand and how sucky(must be positive!) good I am. Been printing/doing research/reconsidering JC options.



- What is wrong with you, Natalie? Wake up and smell the coffee. Now's not the time to be involved in any disruptions in relationships be it at home or in school. Maybe what S mentioned in the affirmation was right, I SHOULD stop socializing and shrink my social circle. I've been thinking, if I was a normal average hi-bye friend, I wouldn't get myself into all these problems, no? Blame it on me to just have to get sooooooo involved in all the problems with everyone. Everyone now knows I fight with everyone I know. I guess its my life, I have this "survival of the fittest" thing that goes about in my head. I'm not saying that it is good, neither am I saying that it is bad. It really depends on what and how the situation is like.

Maybe what XXX said is right. I have too many friends from the same group and too little from everywhere else. Too many friends in the same group = more people affected = more problems. Little from everywhere else = isolated case. I'm not the first person to have lost a best friend, I know people who lose their best friends and what happens to them? They lead their life normally. I'm not saying that not having a best friend is a good thing, neither am I saying that its bad (so don't ****ing twist words!). People have been hating me from the moment I entered this school, don't ask me why. Ask them why. So I've survived 3 years and 4 months and 27 days of at least ONE person hating me. I''ll graduate from this school with more haters but I'll show YOU that you're gonna regret the decision you made.

Mark my words because its not too late: I'm gonna study my ass off and work my way up. You can suck eggs and slowly wait for me to sink. Even if I don't get to JC(worst case scenario) I'll do well in Poly. Mark my words.


Fear rejection, want attention, crave affection and dream of perfection.


Gonna go bathe, then conference call.
Probably meeting the girls tomorrow.

Goodnight.