Drawing close.

Are you like this? Have you ever been?

"Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when you do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger, like when you let down a friend. Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes, we bury our regret by promising to change our own ways. But, our biggest regrets are not for the things we did but, for the things we didn't do. Things we didn't say that could've saved someone that we care about. Especially when we see the dark storm."

I guess the only thing that I regretted was to trust you, wholeheartedly. You said it before, we'd be best friends even when things get hard and difficult between. You taught me things, you made me come round a few times despite fight after fight after fight. Things that you would have kept to yourself would have made the situation so much more easier to resolve. Congratulations, you've had your fun. I hope you're happy or satisfied with the way I feel with myself now. If you would hear me out, I would gladly accept, but I can't do nothing and just blog all this and do nothing. Damn right I miss you as my best friend but things happen, things change. We've change and have different similarities and barely see eye-to-eye anymore.

P.S. I don't mean this post in a sarcastic manner. I mean it, meaningful-ly.
P.P.S. I miss you. Took shitload of guts to finally get it out. I hope you DO read this. (You know who you are)

Mum, me, sister. ALWAYS someone missing. ):

As you all might have figured, I'm back from camp! Last proper update was a few days ago. (Yesterday's three-liner does not count)
Basicaaly, I had laughed hard, cried hard and slept on hard floor during the camp. On the whole it was rather enjoyable, despite the many few hiccups throughout the whole course of the camp. Communication is key. To sum up my paragraph for this year's Exco camp, I shall just leave with one more sentence. It wasn't easy to lead, but at the same time, fun and at the same time, tiring. (You want to know what happened during camp just ask face-to-face)

I've tried posting this once on my Tumblr site, but my internet just kill the page, resulting in a momentary loss of data. So here's what I've been conjuring up/recalling what I typed the other day.
To Boyfriend I.: I never thought that we'd really be together, official. Initially we planned on "being together" as a play-along-thing. You're always there for me, be it as friends, bestfriends, SFs and what we are now. No doubt you and I both have our irregular on and off days, but eventually we shake it all off. You know me well enough to know that I do not like to just let matter go. I tend to ease up on my grasp, until I near the end. Where I suddenly will tighten my grasp at the end of the line. Not wanting to let go. Yet, you are able to help me slowly let things go. I've probably lost count of how many times you've help me out. A simple thank you wouldn't suffice. A hug wouldn't be enough. A treat to Starbucks wouldn't cover a fifth of it. I'm still thinking how I could ever repay you. But now that I know you're here, its good. (: I love you.

Goodnight earthlings.
"You just can't live in that negative way... make way for the positive day."