Everyone needs a lil' cheer-me-up some times.

Turn that frown upside down and just smile, like you mean it.




Exams are over, for now.
Awaiting results.

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I'm still deliberating if I should sell my Olympus for a Sony Cybershot, or should I just hang on to it.

My mum cancelled New Zealand just because she says I have not been "earning her trust" by coming home 30minutes after 7.30pm. (I know, petty)
She doesn't know how much effort I actually put in to study the last few remaining subjects.
I did it with the motivation in my mind that "I'm going NZ for my entrance test this year, I'm going."
Well, my motivation worked, I bothered to study.
Then again, my mum just had to burst my bubble by telling me "Oh, you're not going New Zealand anymore 'cause Mrs Pennycook, your international student co-ordinator and I agreed that 2 weeks to assess the schools and process the place is too short notice."
Bunch of bullcrap I'd say.
My mum probably didn't even email the NZ schools to enquire, which she'd promise she'll do so.

What got me upset was the fact that she judged my friends.
Saying that "Don't think I don't know that you never fight with your friends."
A load of turd.
I mean, so what if I fight with them, at least I still do talk to some of them, like hello.
Judging my friends from what, blogs posts from the days where I used naaatalie.blogspot.com?
You think I didn't know that you knew my URL?
I've been thrown about and have thrown about countless of times, I'm sure I have at least some sense on who's the good ones and who is not.
Just because of my sudden teen angst and mood swings.
I still possess your desired etiquette better than anyone else at home, eat my veggies, brush my teeth and go to school without any prompting.
I'm a fifteen year old girl, can't you just give me a break?

I should have redirected my grades for a better motive.

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You;
Its been ages since we last talked, since I last saw the real you.
Where have you been all this time on Earth?
This time, I admit that I am in the wrong.
Sometimes I wish, can we start over.
Do you know that every store I walked pass today reminded me of you?
Its as though there was a significant thing that I had for you.
Then again, I was the one who ended it.
All I can ask for is for you to come back.
As that special friend of mine.
Till then, I'm still holding on to that slightest feel of hope.
I ain't regretting, but admitting.
Whatever you've seen, may just be a facade, a cover-up, as though I'm perfectly untouched by anything.


Raudah;
I did the essay on "Games at Twilight" and "Pineapple Cake".
I think there are the Literature students in my class who did the same questions as you. I guess the paper was a breeze, 'cause she went through every aspect of the paper, which made it simpler. I did the unseen prose, I didn't really comprehend the poem. Nonetheless, let's pray hope we pass (: Love ya babe.


S.F.;
Lighten up and don't fret too much about it. Won't do wonders if you fret about it, will it? You know you've got me, your fellow S.F. for you to laugh at, to cheer yourself up. Things will get better in time, they always do. Its just a matter of how long time takes. Whatever I've said, you can choose whether to take it in or not. Advices are advices, actions are actions. Just......don't think too much about it. Luvv (:

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Whatever happens now, I shall take it in strides.
Openly and widely, just like how a stride is.

This is the first time I've ever said this on my blog;
I need a hug to make things better.

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Time check: 12.30am.
Thank goodness I do not have school later on.
Goodbye mateys.